So, I had a bit of a scare yesterday morning. Long story short, there was a small security threat to my blog but my host site and I were able to solve the problem rather quickly. I can honestly say that this event left me shaken for a bit. This blog has become extremely important to me. I may not receive any financial benefits from it, but that was never the intention of this blog. I started this blog with the sole intention of sharing God’s word and how it has impacted my life in the hopes that others may come to know Him as well. This blog is what God has called me to do. This threat upset me for two reasons.

1. I felt that in some way I had failed God.
2. I came to realize what this blog means to me.

I know that it is not my fault when an outside force comes to threaten me. I know that it is not my job to be in control of the world around me. However, at that moment, I felt like it was my fault and that I am supposed to be in control. It wasn’t until afterward that I realized that I was falling into old habits. Before I started looking for God, I used to think that I had to control everything. Once I rededicated my life to Jesus, I had to learn how to give Him control. Well, in this case, I felt like God called me to start this blog and it was my responsibility to make sure that nothing bad happened to it. That is why when this threat came in, I felt like there were so many things I could have done to prevent this from happening. I had failed God for not taking care of what He had given me. I had forgotten that not only is God in control but He is merciful and loving to His children.

“Therefore be merciful, just as your Father also is merciful.” – Luke 6:36

A lot of the times we are harder on ourselves that God would be on us. Look at the relationship Jesus had with His disciples. There were several times when they would question Him or doubt what Jesus said. However, rather than getting angry at them or losing His patience, He treated them with love and understanding. This doesn’t mean that God will be ok with a sinful life. What this means is that when we come to Him with a humble heart and repent, He will show us His great love and mercy.

“Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness.” -Lamentations 3:22-23

As I mentioned, this event led me to see what this blog means to me. Whenever I looked at what I’ve written, I would think about how it is helping people right now. However, I never realized the effect this would have in the long term. I am not saying that my blog is that amazing. Don’t get me wrong, I am proud of the work Leon and I have done. However, I have come to realize that this blog is a physical representation of my obedience to God. I was called to start this blog and have kept Jesus at the forefront of it all. Everyone wants to be remembered for something. Everyone wants to leave some kind of legacy behind. When my time comes, I want to be able to say what Paul said.

“I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.” – 2 Timothy 4:7

I don’t want to be remembered for creating a nice blog. Rather I want people to remember His love and grace when they think of me. I want to be remembered as a Christ-follower. I want to live my life in His light so that others may come to know Him too. This blog is just one way that God has provided for me to do that. Until the day Jesus calls me home, I want to continue to grow in Him. I pray that you all come to know Him as well and that you grow closer to Him with each passing day.

“This is a faithful saying: For if we died with Him, we shall also live in Him. If we endure, we shall also reign with Him. If we deny Him, He also will deny us. If we are faithless, He remains faithful; He cannot deny Himself.” – 2 Timothy 11-13